A much needed love letter to my body

I went to go write these thoughts in my journal and then I stopped myself. I thought, “Katy, let these thoughts out. Maybe you will find others that can relate.” 

So here it goes, I’ve had a hard day with my body image. I am not able to work out for a few weeks, which I think does catch up with you mentally. I have been focused on hot girl walks, which no one tells you, includes LOTS of thinking. I am playing the compare game, questioning if I should do something drastic to cut the 20 pounds I want to lose or if maybe this time, counting my calories and fasting, will work. I have played in my head my various options, some seemingly easier than others but I keep coming back to trying to find the appreciation for the body I have been blessed with. This body is full of curves, height, healthy legs, strong arms, abs, and a booty that has been shaped by years of squats. Even as I type this, I feel a bit disconnected from the appreciation. If I am honest, I spent the last few hours looking over some recent pictures and pulling apart every last flaw, hearing friends say “You are being hard on yourself” and yet ignoring them and coming back to my pity party.

Truthfully I am not usually this hard but I think because I am living in a world where social media makes it all look a little easier than we think, I AM STRUGGLING. I AM COMPARING. I AM STUCK. So to combat that, I decided I am going to write a love letter to my strong and beautiful body- leaning into the wonderful ways she has carried me through this life. Thank you for letting me share and be vulnerable and thank you for always having the kindest words to share with me. I love every single person who has ever crossed this page- you are a gift to me. 

Dear my BAWDY-

Girl, you are SUMMERTIME FINE! Because of you, I can always see what’s happening at concerts, I can lead my crew through crowds, getting to the front of the line,  because of my strong legs, I BEAST bike rides, and I’m the friend you want to ask to help you move because my strong arms make things go faster.

Thank you to this body that has allowed me to hit countless PRs at the gym with weightlifting and permits me to continue to challenge myself in the best way to grow my muscles. Oh and speaking of these muscles hunny, let’s give it up for your strong back because it is beautifully shaped! 

Thanks to you body I can take long walks, climb stairs when I need to, take a little run if I feel moved to, take some fire pictures (IYKYK), and rock some incredible fashion looks. 

Thanks to you body I am HEALTHY and although sometimes you have been used as a punching bag for my feelings and comparing games, you continue to hold me down and keep me going. You always remind me that I am one of one and that comparing to other bodies is a losing game because what you are is straight magic. 

So my promise to you, is that I will keep fueling you with greatness. I will drink my water, I will hit the workouts when I want to but I will also take rest days. I will love on you and remind you often that you are a beautiful blessing that I am so grateful to call MINE. I will say more loving affirmations and I will lead with kindness because you deserve it you beautiful baddie. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU, you are art. 

P.S. An honorable mention for the a$$ to waist ratio, it is STUNNING - you doing it girl! 

Forever, I love you. 

-Katy